I was a really good mom before I had kids!

I remember reading that book title a few year ago and thinking how stupid it was....of course that was before I had a baby! But now that I'm a little over a year into mommyhood, I totally get it.  When I was pregnant I used to promise Christian that our our children would never run around in diapers, the house would always be clean and I would always look perfect...all while being a high-powered career woman!  I was going to DO-IT-ALL!  I clearly had no idea what I was getting myself into because this is my reality...

More often than not Jack is wearing nothing but a diaper...

The house usually looks like this...

And when I was pregnant I looked like this...

(OK, in my defense – that preggo picture was taken at a White Trash Party, but I really did wear that outfit. What was I thinking?!)

Anyway, work has been amazingly busy lately and I’ve been gone a lot so I’m feeling like a really bad mom. I often wonder if I really can do it all. Lately, I've been struggling with this question and feeling guilty about being a busy working mom, having a messy house, always having so much to do but not enough hours in the day to get it all done, making time for my husband, my family, my friends,....my blog! And all this stress is causing way too many gray hairs on my head but I'm too broke to get highlights! Argg, what’s a girl to do?!

Well, pray, of course! And God reminds me that I have a LOT of good thing going for me. For starters, I have the best husband on the planet who steps up when I’m busy and takes care of things. And, even though I’m crazed at work, I have an awesome job that affords me tons of flexibility. I know this busy time won’t last forever – in fact it will be over in 2 weeks!! And I have amazing family and friends who are always there for me, even if I don’t call or facebook all the time.

And then there’s Jack – my sweet little buddy who proves to me every day that he’s A-OK! He’s such a smart, healthy, happy boy who I find absolutely irresistible! So when I start to feel stressed and overwhelmed I just look at this delicious little face and I know that I’m going to be OK too…